LIFE RIGHT NOW ◽ YOU
I am sad to announce that this will be my last article for a little while…
This decision of course caused me to look back over my writing journey. My very first article came out June of 2018. I was shocked to discover that it has been almost two in a half years of writing my “Life Right Now” articles each month which amounts to almost 30 articles! I couldn’t have done this for as long as I did without the most amazing editor, Marcy Lytle. I’m so thankful she gave me the opportunity to encourage others with my writing. I hope that I have. It has been an honor to be a part of this uplifting magazine. I am sincerely so sad that this will not be a part of my life anymore, but maybe down the road I will get another chance to write again.
However, writing does not come easy to me and I wouldn’t say it is one of my favorite past times or hobbies. However, my confidence level has slowly increased over these years, thanks in large part to Marcy. I’m a perfectionist, so I began this writing journey thinking my writing was not good enough at all. But she kept affirming me that it was indeed good and that I had a great writing voice that is honest and relatable, and that my writing was not just a rambling mess! (Like this sentence!) I’m still not 100% sure my writing is that great.
I even think saying it’s “good” is being generous, but for the most part I have been able to overcome these nagging perfectionist thoughts, with the help of God. Otherwise, I have a feeling that I would’ve quit writing, a while back.
Also, I remember mentioning in a past article about how being vulnerable is really kind of scary. It is like handing over your journal for others to read. It has been quite the challenge sometimes to muster up enough courage to write my thoughts, my life updates, my fears, my successes, my failures, or my feelings for other people to read. I sometimes worried what people might think of me. But like I have said before, if my writing helps one person to feel like they are not alone or encourages anyone to get to know Jesus better, then that is what helps my fears dissipate. I have to work hard to remember that the only one whose thoughts of me I should care about, is Jesus’. He even knows all the things I don’t share, and yet He still loves me.
With all that said, I honestly cannot believe that this is the last month in the year that no one saw coming; that is, except for God. He knew what would happen this year and every year before and every year after, which is very comforting to me. It has been a trying year for me, for people close to me, for so many. And I’m sure, in one way or another, 2020 has been hard for everyone. I believe that God doesn’t cause pain and suffering; I will believe that to my dying day. Pain and suffering is the result of living in a fallen world. God so desires us to draw closer to Him during times of great loss or suffering, so that He can comfort us. I am under no impression that when this year ends that life will be rainbows and sunshine. No, this next year will have troubles of its very own, but I know that God will walk with me through it all.
Hebrews 13:6 says,
“The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?”
Since this is my last article of the year, I would like to share my one and only New Year’s resolution:
I want to draw closer to God. I want to walk in His will for my life and deepen my relationship with Him more than ever before.
This is it. You know the saying, “All good things must come to an end.” Instead, I would have to say, “All good things come from God and with Him there are no ends, just seasons!" This season of writing for me has finished, but maybe another one will spring up down the road. Only God knows, and I’m quite at peace with that.