LIFE RIGHT NOW ◽ YOU
First things, first. Happy New Year! Also, I just want to wish everyone luck, including myself, when trying to change the number 19 to a number 20. I can’t believe another year has come and gone and I can’t quite get over the fact that it is a new decade. Craziness.
I wasn’t sure I wanted to make any New Year’s resolutions this year. The times that I have, I have failed miserably at them. So why make any, I thought? Because even when I fail at keeping my resolutions, there remains the fact that I strived to accomplish them and through the very striving I learned something through it or grew a little bit.
I resolve to get more sleep; to put my night owl ways aside. I have a bad habit of not only getting into bed later than I should, but then picking up my phone one last time. Yes, I am well aware of how unhealthy that is. I have read articles and heard people talk about the negative side effects of screen time before bed, so that is why I am bound and determined to stop scrolling and start snoozing. I have a feeling I will be a happier, healthier version of myself when I do.
I resolve to make a dentist appointment. I am not going to tell you the last time I went to the dentist that is because I can’t remember when that was.
Am I a little afraid of the dentist? Yes. Am I afraid of how much it will cost? You bet. You know that saying. If it’s not broken don’t fix it. Well, I have kind of adopted that as my reason for not going to the dentist. If there is no pain happening in my mouth then why go. I am totally aware that that is so bad on so many levels. There are at least three things I need to start telling myself about the dentist: he is not the enemy, going to the dentist is preventative care - not “wait till something goes wrong” care, and it will cost less if I go sooner rather than wait for an emergency tooth extraction or something of that nature.
I resolve to be better at budgeting my money. I recently had to add a car payment to my long list of bills and with that came an increase in my insurance bill. Sometimes I am struck with so much worry over the possibility of there not being enough money to pay all of my bills. It blinds me to the truth that God has always and will always provide everything I need. He is a good father that gives good things to those that ask. I will keep praying for provision, but at the same time do my part by being wise with what is ultimately God’s money.
I resolve to be a better neighbor. I want my love for others to increase. I don’t want to withhold kindness from anyone. One of the last movies I saw was It’s a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood. First of all, it is a wonderful movie. Tom Hanks was perfect as Mr. Rogers. The film had a lasting impact on me just like the Mr. Rogers show had a lasting impact on me growing up. His kindness and inclusiveness is something I admire. One of my favorite quotes from him is, “To love someone is to strive to accept that person exactly the way he or she is. Right here and now.”
My final resolution is not just for this year, it is a life resolution.
I resolve to strengthen my walk with the Lord. I pray that God will put in me a strong desire to read His word. I want to spend more time getting to know Jesus and to find out what He wants me to do next. I struggle with not wanting to stray too far off the path that I stall out and don’t budge for fear of straying off of it. I fear that I am going to somehow miss where I am supposed to go next.
Psalm 119:105 says,
“Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light to my path.”
If I just stay in His word and take the time to hear His words, my path will be illuminated. No matter what happens in 2020, whether I accomplish some or all of my resolutions, I can’t do any of it without Jesus and I don’t ever want to.